January 2012
2 posts
Gloomy weather
You give me no options but to linger in the waste of time I have become.
Surrounded by nothing but love I can’t do anything but push away and tell myself not to live with any longer. I want to leave. Don’t know where I would go, dont know what I’d do. Maybe I’d just lay there and think some more, think of why I couldnt fix things, I think Ive lost my mind and I have sadly...
December 2011
3 posts
November 2011
7 posts
Plain and simple. I just want to start over.
So here's the thing.
You are completely and utterly bad news.
I should stay away.
You should stay away.
Holy shit, this is going to be hard.
October 2011
1 post
There is no such thing as a clean slate
because whats done is done, and there is nothing that could ever change that.
So, here is to new beginnings.
No one will ever be able to take away the guilt you feel, or the remorse you hold. The truth behind every lie is not what the lie is, it’s what the truth does.
August 2011
3 posts
July 2011
5 posts
There can't be a cure when there is no diagnosis.
The street lights are glowing and my thoughts are touching the sky. Breathing has never felt so good under the circumstances that I don’t feel alive anymore. The complications with my existence is the lack of belief that things can get better. Sometimes I give up so easily, that I’m ashamed of ever even opening my eyes to see such beauty and letting it go in the end. I always find...
June 2011
18 posts
Day 3/4
Your day in great detail:
I repeatedly woke up next to my boyfriend. Hands held, legs tangled and bodies in synced. Till the morning came and I realized my EDC weekend was over. I closed my eyes and the darkness of the rain clouds ate me, I think my heart was consumed in the beauty of lifes undeserving love. Once my feet set foot in the hallway of my home I saw sight of my bed, invaided walls,...
30 Day challenge
Day 1
The basics: Michelle. Nineteen. Fuck the world.
Day 2
Likes:
Sunny weather/flowers in my hair.
Dancing around no matter who’s looking.
Best friends.
Drawing out the things that linger in my brain.
Singing over the phone.
People who make me smile.
Coffee and kush.
Bubble baths.
Watching Spongebob on a Sunday morning.
Staring at the sky.
Dislikes:
Close minded...
Preservation;
Have you ever heard of using up your love all at once?
I could be doing this all wrong. My brain hasn’t copped with the understanding that I’ve found someone who inspires me to seek beyond the limits. My lack of belief has dissappointed me in new heights, and yet I find myself with just a spark of hope when you enter my thoughts. But something in me will not comprehend that if I...
I am entirely too tired of being tired.
I’m like an orchestra to your ears, and we’re just getting to the suspense. Wait for the drums, wait for the trumpets.
There are certain things in life that happen because a lesson was planned. You either take it or you don’t. People make the mistake of losing there dreams and settle down for what they see in front of them at the moment. But, who knows where life’s...
May 2011
2 posts
“Post breakup sex that helps you forget your ex.”
– The Vaccines
April 2011
3 posts
I remember your four green walls,
your tan blotched carpet and empty painted ceiling, the way your pillow smelt like sultry before I lye in it and how you sang me to sleep before every day had its end. The tears are still fresh and wounds will not lie. The problem with knowing love exists, is knowing that not everyone finds it. I never thought it would be this hard, to see, to know, to realize that you aren’t here anymore....
March 2011
1 post
Day Ten
Ten things you want to say to ten different people:
1. Iloveyou, thanks for every thing.
2. You got to try these sweet potato chips, they’re awesome.
3. I promise to spend more time with you…
4. We get to see CJ today!
5. If this is you playing hard to get, I’m not going to chase after you.
6. Wanna watch some Spongebob with me?
7. You fucked up.
8. How do you feel about...
January 2011
1 post
I wish I was strong enough to know I could do this...
November 2010
4 posts
No. Sir, I do not love you.
Nor will I let myself love you, ever, ever again.
With as long as we have been holding on this god forsaken triangle of shit, we assume to call fate and love I am going to drop the ball and walk away. I will no longer text you sweet nothings of enjoyment throughout the day, or respond to your persuasive attempts to lure me back into you life. I do not love you. I no longer care what my heart...
